Paul, Cristina, Stephanie, Charlotte, Floor, Loni and Rebecca went to Ixtapa and Zihuatanejo for the weekend but for various reasons I opted out of the trip and stayed in Querétaro. I have a year down here and I'm not in any hurry.
Friday Crisitina and I went to the gym. She does weights and stuff but I did an hour and a half of cardio. I really wish I could do that everyday... If I get up early enough and take a taxi I think I could squeeze in an hour and a half in and a shower before my 10am class.
Also, I went to Las Gallerias yesterday and finally found Eurotrip! Also, I bought some cute stuff at Zara but I need to find some black leggings before I wear the skirt. It goes to my knees but its pretty floaty.
My Spanish is slowly getting better. I just have to tell myself not to panic when people start talking to me. And, not be afraid to just tell them to TALK SLOWER.
I realize that because I need to save up for a camera I shouldn't be going on any epic vacations this summer but I don't think backpacking up the coast of Mexico is out of the question. I want to go home with a kick ass tan of course!
I threw out a couple questions to Mike and Joey but I doubt anyone will come with me. I'm also pretty certain that the only person that will visit me in Mexico during the next year is going to be my Mom.
Nathaniel (on that topic)... says hes not ready for a relationship. I understand it's ridiculous we even had that discussion because I'm so far away and whatever... I've analyzed things enough in my my journal I don't need to do it here but for whoever may be reading... I no longer have a man friend.
I feel a little out of place sometimes with the other international kids because they really like to drink, some get naked and some have random hookups. That's never been me and nothing that could happen with anyone here could be permanent.
I've gone longer than 8 months single at a time and that's not the part that bothers me... It's that I already know there is no possibility I'm going to have anyone special in my life for 8 months or longer. In the absence of possibility things can get depressing.
My life is pretty fucking cool and it makes me sad I don't have anyone to share it with. I can only drag Billy, Nick or Chris on so many activities for company. I thought Nathaniel and I had possibility and half of me still does and truly believes all the reason we need a different tone on things right now. But, having generally low self esteem part of me whispers to not get my hopes up for May because I'm just not that special.
So, unless I'm about to go to sleep or writing I generally don't think about him on purpose.
I think about going to the gym (and being excited to go), doing homework, who I'm hanging out with that day or future travels.
My reading has slowed down since Eat/Pray/Love but I'm going to jumpstart it again. I want to finish every book I brought with me and some before december. It doesn't sound like that big of a deal but the complete short stories of Hemingway is probably going to take 2 weeks or 3 considering we have partials soon.
I bought my ticket home for Christmas. December 10th till January 9th. It's going to be my first birthday away from my parents and my first in a different country. And then, I'm going to be old.
Do I dare to eat a peach...?
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